The night before...

Tomorrow is Izzul's first day at school - or childcare you can call it but i'm the one having jitters. I am even having second thoughts on whether it is really necessary to have him sent to a childcare. I am dead worried at how he will turn out after attending them. My biggest worry is whether he will regard me less his mother because I 'placed' him at a childcare. Paranoid you can call me. I keep telling myself that I am not doing this to ease myself off the responsibility because as much a terror Izzul can be at times, I love spending time with him and you can never know the silly little things he do and the things he picks up as he learns about his surrounding - it is just adorable and would not want to miss them when he does all these.

Yesterday I was already having a hard time sleeping thinking about this. I told my hubby that I can feel my love for Izzul grow each day - at a rapid pace that it scares me. Scared of losing him or him losing me - in any way. I told you I am naturally a worrier and paranoia-er. When Izzul was born, I knew I had to love him, but it was more of ' the responsibility' to love him. I didn't understand then. But love as any living thing, grows and blossoms. And living thing goes away too... I am forgetting something here.. like maybe Batrisyia? No, I don't love her any less, in fact, having Izzul first helped me to have a headstart 'love feeling' towards Batrisyia. With Izzul, I don't know how to instantaneously love him. Maybe I am just not a natural as most books and films like to describe. But with Batrisyia, I knew how this love mother-child thing works and plus Batrisyia is super cuddly cute that it makes it all even easier.

It's been a while since I put up a recent photo of my babies. These ones are about a month old, they have grown a little but other than that - features hasn't changed much.

Carriers and Slings

I'm so sorry that I didn't have the time to upload Zahra's pic. We have been really busy with IBG's stuffs and my babies have not been well these last few weeks, catching on some cold and cough along the way.

I believe in my old blog, I menioned about this carrier of mine called the Baby Compact. Well, Baby compact is suitable only when your infant is able to hold her body and neck rather well, so I decided to get Baby Bjorn to add on to my collection of Baby Carriers.

Comparing Baby Bjorn, Baby Compact and Baby Sling - here's my take:

Baby Sling - This is my least favourite. It could be just me who can't seem to have control over the fabric. It keeps sliding off and I have constant fear that my baby is going to slip through. An advantage it has over the other 2 is that it allows the baby to be placed lying down position.

Baby Compact - I can't really call this a winner or runner up as both have their plus and minuses. For instance, Baby compact as the name puts it, is really compact and you can put them in your bag. You would think that is not an important factor. However, you will see the importance after you own a diaper bag and yet could never have enough space to fit all the necessary things. Another good thing about baby compact is that I can shift my baby left and right of my hip just by shifting the baby over. An I read somewhere that it is better (ergonomically for your baby) to put your babies on your hips instead of facing her to the front or facing you.

Baby Bjorn - It is sturdy and you feel that the fasteners are so secure that you can even jog with it (not advisable but if situation requires it...) It looks cool, it supports your back great and easy to put on. Bad thing is, it's kinda bulky.

So you see, if you want compact, you got to compromise a little on the support and vice versa. But all in all, any carriers would still put a strain on your shoulders and back eventually if carried for too long a time. So, invest in a stroller.. one sure way to get a good deal, get from http://www.izzulbabygift.com/ ;)